I Still Get The Feeling That I Shouldn't be in The Room
I was recently invited to facilitate a personal branding session at a global insurance company in the City of London. Usually I take public speaking in my stride. I rarely get nervous and I'm always very excited because I absolutely love running those types of sessions and engaging with people but for some reason a little gremlin crept into my mind and started whispering.
It was the gremlin of doubt, of second guessing, of fear.
It had been so long since I had hosted this gremlin that it took me by surprise. Thankfully it didn't distract me enough to throw me off my game and I ran the session successfully but my goodness I was irritated. Not because I believe that I am perfect but because I gave myself a hard time for allowing that gremlin to enter my headspace. When to be honest having those brief moments of doubt are normal, they are natural. They do not define me as somehow being a failure or an imposter or a fraud, they simply remind me of how far I have come and what I am capable of.
There are going to be moments when I may not think that I should be in a room but as long as I don't believe this to be true and as long as I face those moments and push through whilst recognising them without giving away my power I can keep going. I used to have so many gremlins that tried to make me believe that I was not good enough and although I have conquered them, sometimes they want to pay me a visit just to see if they can stay. But they can only visit now, they cannot stay - even if sometimes it feels safer if they do stay. Why? Because they keep me safe, they keep me in that place of limitation where nothing can go wrong because I'm not expanding. You know what I'm talking about. Staying where we are is so much safer than expanding and exploring new ways of doing things. But here's to letting those gremlins visit once in a while but remembering that they cannot stay with us.
What gremlins have visited you recently? How did you overcome them?
